Current mood:
lonely Sometimes guys just make me SO upset. Not all of them but some of them. I hate mixed signals and I hate being led on to believe things that aren't true. Like don't tell me that you think that I am really hot and do things with me that you do with someone that you like or are interested in. AND tell me to call you and that we should hang out. AND then not call or text me back when I do exactly what you said. Let me know the truth right off the bat. Don't lead me on to believe that maybe things can work out if thing were better when we both know that they can't. Don't tell me it is all cause you are a nice guy and you didn't know. Apologies are taken with conditions. You will never have my full trust or really be my friend because you screwed up.
This message is kinda directed at one person right now. But it is not the first time that something similar has happened to me. So it is kinda a message to all the assholes out there that are faking that they are nice guys. For instance, if there is no chemistry then tell me or make it obvious. Be a jerk if you have to be. I will actually have more respect for a guy that doesn't lead me on. But I also have no respect for a guy that continues to be an asshole to my friends and I way after the fact.
Lately, I have felt wanted by some people but very very unwanted by other people. I am not sure how I am handling this whole being single thing. It is hard for me. I know I am probably being selfish but I want to be loved again. It is the greatest feeling in the world. I have never handled rejection very well and to have it happen over and over and over again. SUCKS! I guess it is life and it happens and I have to deal. But guys are really just starting to piss me off. So this is to all the assholes that I have had to deal with lately. I am sure that none of them will read this either cuz none of them care enough about me to read my blogs. But good riddance anyways.
